1 00:01:56,440 --> 00:01:59,398 Remarkable. Very remarkable. 2 00:02:02,000 --> 00:02:07,313 How long will it take, Mr. Jenkins ? - No. We're almost done. 3 00:02:12,600 --> 00:02:15,558 Don't put that chair in the loop. 4 00:02:19,280 --> 00:02:22,511 Nesta, do you have Professor Blathwaite? seen ? 5 00:02:22,680 --> 00:02:26,798 Not a pane of glass remains intact if they continue like this. 6 00:02:26,960 --> 00:02:28,757 It's bad. 7 00:02:29,880 --> 00:02:32,872 Is that chair still there? 8 00:02:34,840 --> 00:02:38,992 Ieuan, where are you? 9 00:04:24,120 --> 00:04:26,554 It's scorching hot here. 10 00:04:26,720 --> 00:04:29,280 Disgusting. 11 00:04:29,440 --> 00:04:32,830 Why didn't you answer? - I was sleeping. 12 00:04:33,000 --> 00:04:36,436 You drank again. - That's possible. 13 00:04:36,600 --> 00:04:39,876 Where is Alexander? - No idea. 14 00:04:40,040 --> 00:04:43,635 Are you staying the rest of the day? sit in that stench? 15 00:04:43,800 --> 00:04:45,472 Methinks. 16 00:04:45,640 --> 00:04:49,189 I don't understand what's wrong with you, Ieuan. - Me neither. 17 00:05:05,120 --> 00:05:08,954 Stop. - Good afternoon, Doctor Lloyd. 18 00:05:09,120 --> 00:05:12,192 Dafydd, are you okay? - Excellent. 19 00:05:15,560 --> 00:05:17,198 Here we go. 20 00:05:21,560 --> 00:05:26,554 They're going crazy today. - Dafydd, now I can. 21 00:05:27,920 --> 00:05:30,957 You guys are busy. - It's getting even busier. 22 00:05:31,120 --> 00:05:34,271 That's what Mrs. Davies and the professor not nice. 23 00:05:34,440 --> 00:05:36,954 Are you sure you're going there now? - That's right. 24 00:05:37,120 --> 00:05:41,955 He really needs to get to work. - Me, too. 25 00:05:42,120 --> 00:05:46,159 Say hello to your wife. - Here we go. 26 00:05:55,000 --> 00:05:59,312 Gwen, where is Professor Blathwaite? - Excuse me. 27 00:06:02,160 --> 00:06:05,436 Tom, take off that cap. 28 00:06:05,600 --> 00:06:08,956 Where is Professor Blathwaite? - Walking. 29 00:06:09,120 --> 00:06:12,749 A bit around? - With Sian and Mrs. Blathwaite. 30 00:06:40,560 --> 00:06:44,439 Calm down, child. What's wrong with you? There's Doctor Lloyd. 31 00:06:44,600 --> 00:06:48,752 Rhianon, put the parasol in the garden 32 00:06:48,920 --> 00:06:51,832 How are you, Gwenny? 33 00:06:52,000 --> 00:06:55,436 I've come to see the professor. - They're out for a walk. 34 00:06:55,600 --> 00:07:00,435 Mr. Blathwaite said he was sick. Rheumatism or gout, or something. 35 00:07:00,600 --> 00:07:04,115 I'm busy. I come from far away. - I know all about it. 36 00:07:04,280 --> 00:07:07,397 It's a madhouse here. 37 00:07:07,560 --> 00:07:10,757 Just go to the garden, then you will get a cup of tea. 38 00:08:24,360 --> 00:08:28,319 He has a book of sermons written. 39 00:08:28,480 --> 00:08:33,270 “Right to Hope,” was the title. It contained twelve sermons. 40 00:08:35,280 --> 00:08:39,990 How long have you known me, Gwenny? - Rhianon, there is no sugar. 41 00:08:40,160 --> 00:08:43,914 What to do with such a stupid goose? Sorry, what did you say? 42 00:08:44,080 --> 00:08:47,868 How long have you known me? - Let me think for a moment. 43 00:08:48,040 --> 00:08:54,388 Sian's mother was still alive. You visited her often those last two years. 44 00:08:54,560 --> 00:08:59,076 How long has she been dead? Eleven years? Then I have known you for eleven years. 45 00:08:59,240 --> 00:09:02,676 You were a handsome man then. Now you're drinking whiskey. 46 00:09:02,840 --> 00:09:06,196 I don't want tea, Gwenny. - Drink ahead. 47 00:09:46,280 --> 00:09:49,317 Slept well, - Would you like some tea, Ieuan? 48 00:09:49,480 --> 00:09:53,917 Since Professor Blathwaite and his wife live here... 49 00:09:54,080 --> 00:09:56,594 everything is upside down. - An insane asylum. 50 00:09:56,760 --> 00:10:02,392 I sleep poorly, I eat poorly, I drink. All very unhealthy. 51 00:10:06,600 --> 00:10:10,593 I had no free time before that. 52 00:10:10,760 --> 00:10:15,834 Sian and I worked constantly and we were happy. 53 00:10:17,560 --> 00:10:21,838 Now she does all the work and I sleep, eat and drink. 54 00:10:24,720 --> 00:10:26,756 It's a shame. 55 00:10:32,200 --> 00:10:38,673 How long do they stay? - For good. He continues to live here. 56 00:10:38,840 --> 00:10:44,551 We always had a hot meal at one o'clock. Now it suddenly has to be at six o'clock. 57 00:10:46,200 --> 00:10:49,829 He sits until two in the morning to read and write. 58 00:10:50,000 --> 00:10:52,195 And then he wants tea. 59 00:11:00,160 --> 00:11:04,597 He just decided to continue living here... 60 00:11:04,760 --> 00:11:09,436 because London is too expensive for a retired professor. 61 00:11:12,080 --> 00:11:17,074 The tea is cold again. - Don't complain. They are already there. 62 00:11:17,240 --> 00:11:18,719 Professor. 63 00:11:22,120 --> 00:11:24,714 Tea time. 64 00:11:24,880 --> 00:11:28,190 Mrs. Blathwaite. Good afternoon, professor. 65 00:11:28,360 --> 00:11:30,032 Tea in my room, Gwen. 66 00:11:30,200 --> 00:11:35,149 I want to take notes right away about the landscape. 67 00:12:03,480 --> 00:12:05,710 Get Doctor Llyod. 68 00:12:32,080 --> 00:12:34,196 Sian, come here. 69 00:12:46,520 --> 00:12:51,435 Sian, my stick. - Okay, Dad. 70 00:13:26,520 --> 00:13:29,398 It doesn't matter what I do. 71 00:13:29,560 --> 00:13:34,839 Regardless of whether I'm in my carriage walk through the garden or look at this table. 72 00:13:35,000 --> 00:13:37,833 I'm so happy. So happy. 73 00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:42,790 Take this to the professor. - But of course. 74 00:13:49,360 --> 00:13:53,672 The weather is nice, the birds chirping, you hear the sea... 75 00:13:55,280 --> 00:13:59,273 and we all are good friends, or not? 76 00:14:00,760 --> 00:14:02,830 What more could a person want? 77 00:14:10,440 --> 00:14:12,954 What's going on? - Here? 78 00:14:13,120 --> 00:14:15,793 Yes, the last few days. 79 00:14:15,960 --> 00:14:19,794 Nothing. Everything is as it was. 80 00:14:19,960 --> 00:14:23,157 Only worse, because I'm so lazy. 81 00:14:23,320 --> 00:14:28,269 I've been grumbling all day like an old woman. 82 00:14:28,440 --> 00:14:31,750 My mother whines about women's rights. 83 00:14:31,920 --> 00:14:33,990 With one foot in the grave... 84 00:14:34,160 --> 00:14:38,358 and still read learned articles and hope for a better life. 85 00:14:38,520 --> 00:14:41,478 And the professor? 86 00:14:41,640 --> 00:14:45,189 Herr Professor pens down great thoughts. 87 00:14:45,360 --> 00:14:50,718 With frowning face and troubled brain we tire our great intellect 88 00:14:52,600 --> 00:14:56,639 We look for insights, but in vain. 89 00:14:56,800 --> 00:15:00,429 Scribble, scribble, scribble. 90 00:15:00,600 --> 00:15:03,990 You would feel sorry with the paper. 91 00:15:04,160 --> 00:15:07,470 He would write his autobiography have to write. 92 00:15:07,640 --> 00:15:11,713 A retired professor, a shrunken academic giant. 93 00:15:11,880 --> 00:15:14,519 He was the son from a poor clerk... 94 00:15:14,680 --> 00:15:17,911 but he kicks it until university... 95 00:15:18,080 --> 00:15:22,437 and even becomes a professor. One triumph after another. 96 00:15:22,600 --> 00:15:26,639 He never knew disappointment. 97 00:15:26,800 --> 00:15:32,432 Has written about art for 25 years while he doesn't understand a word of it. 98 00:15:32,600 --> 00:15:36,798 About things that smart people already know and don't interest those stupid people. 99 00:15:36,960 --> 00:15:40,509 Now he is retired and no one knows who he is. 100 00:15:40,680 --> 00:15:42,398 He is completely unknown. 101 00:15:44,360 --> 00:15:47,238 But he does as if he were a gift from God. 102 00:15:47,400 --> 00:15:49,960 It's clear. 103 00:15:50,120 --> 00:15:53,590 You envy him. - Of course I envy him. 104 00:15:53,760 --> 00:15:57,116 Look how well he's doing among women. 105 00:15:59,640 --> 00:16:02,871 Don Juan is nothing. 106 00:16:03,040 --> 00:16:06,953 First my sister. My dear sister Hannah. 107 00:16:07,120 --> 00:16:09,634 Wife number one. 108 00:16:09,800 --> 00:16:14,032 Lovely, kind creature. Generous and generous. 109 00:16:15,200 --> 00:16:19,193 She had more admirers then students... 110 00:16:19,360 --> 00:16:23,512 but she loved him in all her naivety. 111 00:16:26,080 --> 00:16:31,950 My mother adores him, or you must calling it a kind of holy fear. 112 00:16:37,280 --> 00:16:41,353 Then comes Helen, wife number two. 113 00:16:41,520 --> 00:16:45,115 Beautiful, intelligent, gifted. 114 00:16:46,520 --> 00:16:50,798 He was already an old man when they got married. 115 00:16:50,960 --> 00:16:55,750 But still she gave him her youth, beauty and its freedom. 116 00:17:00,840 --> 00:17:05,152 How does he play that? Isn't it all ready? 117 00:17:06,640 --> 00:17:10,713 Is she faithful to him? - Sadly enough, yes. 118 00:17:10,880 --> 00:17:15,078 Why is that sad? - Such loyalty is false loyalty. 119 00:17:15,240 --> 00:17:19,233 Being unfaithful to an old man is unthinkable and immoral. 120 00:17:19,400 --> 00:17:24,349 But suffocating your youth and it certainly doesn't kill all your feelings. 121 00:17:26,160 --> 00:17:28,993 Ieuan, don't talk like that. 122 00:17:29,160 --> 00:17:33,472 It's horrible to cheat on your spouse. 123 00:17:33,640 --> 00:17:38,839 Shut up, Pocky. - It's as bad as treason. 124 00:17:39,000 --> 00:17:42,515 My wife went there one day left after we got married. 125 00:17:42,680 --> 00:17:44,636 She thought I was ugly, she said. 126 00:17:44,800 --> 00:17:47,758 But I'm never her been unfaithful. 127 00:17:50,440 --> 00:17:56,595 I loved her, I love her and I will always stand by her. 128 00:17:59,280 --> 00:18:04,638 I haven't had much since the yard is bankrupt, but I have my pride. 129 00:18:14,000 --> 00:18:19,199 You wrote that your husband was seriously ill, but he seemed fine to me. 130 00:18:19,360 --> 00:18:23,273 He's fine too. Today. 131 00:18:23,440 --> 00:18:26,318 But tonight he had severe pain in his leg. 132 00:18:26,480 --> 00:18:28,630 I traveled 25 km. 133 00:18:33,280 --> 00:18:36,829 Never mind. 134 00:18:37,000 --> 00:18:41,676 Now I'll just stay here. Then I sleep at least once right. 135 00:18:58,240 --> 00:19:03,758 The tea is cold. - I'll put on some more water. 136 00:19:05,040 --> 00:19:09,158 The temperature in the teapot seems to have dropped somewhat. 137 00:19:11,480 --> 00:19:13,869 It's okay, Mr. Prichard. 138 00:19:14,040 --> 00:19:17,999 It's nice on a hot day. Cold tea. 139 00:19:18,160 --> 00:19:23,871 Excuse me. My name is Prosser. Thomas Prosser. 140 00:19:24,040 --> 00:19:28,909 Some call me Pocky, because I have a pockmarked face. 141 00:19:29,080 --> 00:19:34,518 I'm Sian's godfather. We eat together every night. 142 00:19:34,680 --> 00:19:36,716 Really and truly ? 143 00:20:04,680 --> 00:20:07,399 I had completely forgotten that. 144 00:20:07,560 --> 00:20:11,838 I have a letter from Henry Jones containing his new article. 145 00:20:12,000 --> 00:20:14,594 Interesting ? - A bit strange. 146 00:20:14,760 --> 00:20:19,117 He attacks the position he previously defended. How bad. 147 00:20:19,280 --> 00:20:22,033 No. Shut your mouth. - I want to talk. 148 00:20:22,200 --> 00:20:26,876 We discuss those pamphlets for fifty years. I'm tired of it. 149 00:20:27,480 --> 00:20:33,316 Why can't I talk? How you have changed, Ieuan. 150 00:20:33,480 --> 00:20:38,190 You were always a right-thinking man with enlightened views. 151 00:20:38,360 --> 00:20:40,874 What do you mean? Who enlightened whom? 152 00:20:41,040 --> 00:20:43,998 You couldn't have hurt me worse. 153 00:20:44,160 --> 00:20:47,755 I've wasted years with academic drivel. 154 00:20:47,920 --> 00:20:51,993 to escape the truth. I believed in it. 155 00:20:52,160 --> 00:20:58,998 Now I lie awake and curse myself for what I didn't do. 156 00:20:59,160 --> 00:21:02,357 Now I'm too old. - Uncle, you're tiring. 157 00:21:02,520 --> 00:21:07,150 It's your own fault. Then had you just have to follow your heart 158 00:21:07,320 --> 00:21:11,711 And have to become a typewriter, like the professor? 159 00:21:11,880 --> 00:21:15,270 Grandma, uncle, stop it. - Sorry. I'll keep my mouth shut. 160 00:21:23,680 --> 00:21:25,079 Break up. 161 00:21:29,560 --> 00:21:34,873 What a wonderful day. Not too hot. 162 00:21:35,040 --> 00:21:37,759 A beautiful day to hang yourself. 163 00:21:49,960 --> 00:21:55,956 I'd love to show you my estate. I built the garden myself. 164 00:21:56,120 --> 00:22:00,830 I have a beautiful arboretum. - So you like trees? 165 00:22:01,000 --> 00:22:03,594 Rather. - Seems monotonous to me. 166 00:22:03,760 --> 00:22:06,354 He plants new varieties every year. 167 00:22:06,520 --> 00:22:11,514 He has a medal and a diploma of the agricultural society. 168 00:22:11,680 --> 00:22:17,232 He is committed to conservation of ancient forests. Very interesting. 169 00:22:17,400 --> 00:22:22,713 Forests make the world beautiful. They inspire us to think big things. 170 00:22:22,880 --> 00:22:26,316 And here in Wales they make the climate milder. 171 00:22:26,480 --> 00:22:29,631 This also results in mild people. 172 00:22:29,800 --> 00:22:33,349 They look better are sensitive and intelligent. 173 00:22:33,520 --> 00:22:37,433 Bravo, Sian. Very charming. 174 00:22:37,600 --> 00:22:43,072 But it's nonsense. The people in Caernarfonshire are neither handsome nor clever. 175 00:22:43,240 --> 00:22:46,437 I'm sorry, but I continue to burn wood. 176 00:22:46,600 --> 00:22:49,114 Why don't you burn peat? 177 00:22:49,280 --> 00:22:52,875 Why not build with stone instead of wood? 178 00:22:57,440 --> 00:22:58,793 Where is Doctor Llyod? 179 00:22:58,960 --> 00:23:01,952 Maybe it's an obsession from me. 180 00:23:02,120 --> 00:23:05,192 When I walk through woods that I saved... 181 00:23:05,360 --> 00:23:09,638 and hear the rustling of trees which I planted myself... 182 00:23:09,800 --> 00:23:12,075 then I feel satisfied. 183 00:23:12,240 --> 00:23:17,997 If humanity ever becomes happy, I may have contributed to that. 184 00:23:18,160 --> 00:23:23,678 If I plant a tree and it grows seeing it come to fruition makes me so proud. 185 00:23:23,840 --> 00:23:27,116 Doctor Llyod? - What is ? 186 00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:34,350 An accident happened in the quarry. Dafydd is seriously injured. 187 00:23:34,520 --> 00:23:36,078 I'll go with you. 188 00:23:37,920 --> 00:23:41,879 I have to go. Dafydd Humphreys had an accident. 189 00:23:42,040 --> 00:23:43,268 Poor Dafydd. 190 00:23:44,960 --> 00:23:47,793 Come back afterwards. - Who knows. 191 00:23:49,160 --> 00:23:52,277 What did he say? - Someone had an accident. 192 00:23:52,440 --> 00:23:56,991 Dafydd Humphreys. He has to go there. - I understand. 193 00:24:06,280 --> 00:24:10,956 Doctor Llyod has a tired and sensitive face. 194 00:24:11,120 --> 00:24:14,192 A fascinating sight. 195 00:24:14,360 --> 00:24:19,354 Sian is clearly in love with him. And I understand that quite well. 196 00:24:19,520 --> 00:24:22,830 He's handsome, intelligent. 197 00:24:23,000 --> 00:24:26,151 Like a moon in a dark night. 198 00:24:26,320 --> 00:24:30,518 It doesn't matter that he is not in love. She's ordinary... 199 00:24:30,680 --> 00:24:34,514 but she would make a good wife for a rural doctor. 200 00:24:34,680 --> 00:24:39,879 I've never had a real conversation fed with him. I'm shy. 201 00:24:40,040 --> 00:24:42,713 I'm not even nice to him. 202 00:24:43,800 --> 00:24:50,148 I think you and I are friends, because we're both so boring. 203 00:24:50,320 --> 00:24:53,232 Don't look at me like that. - But I love you. 204 00:24:53,400 --> 00:24:57,109 That's not funny. - You are my life and my happiness. 205 00:24:57,280 --> 00:25:00,078 They still hear you. - I don't care. 206 00:25:00,240 --> 00:25:04,631 I don't want much. Just a kiss. Give me a kiss. 207 00:25:04,800 --> 00:25:09,920 You're impossible again. You're annoyed your mother, you mock Alexander. 208 00:25:10,080 --> 00:25:12,196 I want to eat you. 209 00:25:12,360 --> 00:25:18,037 I hate him. He's so stupid. - He's no worse than you. 210 00:25:18,200 --> 00:25:19,633 Kiss me. 211 00:25:25,280 --> 00:25:28,556 Helen, you're too bored to live. 212 00:25:28,720 --> 00:25:33,589 You accuse Alexander, you have pity me. You don't mean anything. 213 00:25:37,280 --> 00:25:42,673 Like the doctor said, you're destroying the forests and the people. 214 00:25:42,840 --> 00:25:46,469 The doctor is right. You guys are so destructive. 215 00:25:46,640 --> 00:25:52,192 You don't care about birds, trees or women and each other. 216 00:25:52,360 --> 00:25:54,828 Spare me that philosophizing. 217 00:26:05,840 --> 00:26:10,914 Let me talk to you. I love you. - Stop it. 218 00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:14,834 Don't reject me. - You're impossible. 219 00:26:24,320 --> 00:26:26,470 Hold him. 220 00:27:54,920 --> 00:27:59,038 Who's there? Sian, is that you? 221 00:27:59,200 --> 00:28:01,509 It's me. 222 00:28:07,560 --> 00:28:12,634 The pain is unbearable. -Your blanket fell off. 223 00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:15,439 I close the window. - Don't. 224 00:28:15,600 --> 00:28:17,955 What time is it? - leave. 225 00:28:18,120 --> 00:28:21,999 Why am I breathing so hard? - You're tired. 226 00:28:22,160 --> 00:28:27,075 You haven't slept for two nights. - I'm afraid it's gout. 227 00:28:27,240 --> 00:28:31,791 Gout can give you angina. Old age is so disgusting. 228 00:28:31,960 --> 00:28:37,751 If I already find myself disgusting, you guys think I'm completely disgusting. 229 00:28:37,920 --> 00:28:42,471 It's not our fault. - But you do find me repulsive. 230 00:28:42,640 --> 00:28:48,272 I'm not stupid. I get it. You are young, healthy and beautiful. 231 00:28:48,440 --> 00:28:54,151 I'm so old I'm almost a corpse. 232 00:28:54,320 --> 00:28:59,348 It's absurd that I'm still alive. But you will soon be free of me. 233 00:28:59,520 --> 00:29:03,798 For God's sake, stop that. 234 00:29:04,880 --> 00:29:06,996 I'm so tired. 235 00:29:07,160 --> 00:29:14,032 Everyone is tired, bored and asked old. All thanks to me. 236 00:29:14,200 --> 00:29:19,558 I'm the only one having fun. - I've had enough. 237 00:29:19,720 --> 00:29:24,032 Everyone's had enough of me. - This is intolerable. 238 00:29:24,200 --> 00:29:26,270 What do you want from me? - Nothing. 239 00:29:26,440 --> 00:29:28,954 Then stop. - Crazy, actually. 240 00:29:29,120 --> 00:29:35,593 When Ieuan orates, or his crazy mother, everyone listens politely. 241 00:29:35,760 --> 00:29:40,151 But when I open my mouth everyone is instantly bored. 242 00:29:40,320 --> 00:29:43,517 My voice already arouses your disgust. 243 00:29:43,680 --> 00:29:48,708 Well, I may be repulsive, selfish and tyrannical. 244 00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:52,668 Like an old man be a little selfish? 245 00:29:52,840 --> 00:29:54,592 Didn't I deserve that? 246 00:29:54,760 --> 00:29:58,230 I have dedicated my life to science. 247 00:29:58,400 --> 00:30:03,315 Exchanging thoughts with respected colleagues. 248 00:30:03,480 --> 00:30:08,873 Now here I am in this horrible morgue in Wales. 249 00:30:09,040 --> 00:30:14,637 I meet stupid people and listen to their stupid nonsense. 250 00:30:14,800 --> 00:30:18,395 Wales, Wales. 251 00:30:18,560 --> 00:30:21,438 I feel like an exile. 252 00:30:21,600 --> 00:30:27,118 I live in the past, but am terrified of dying. 253 00:30:27,280 --> 00:30:32,559 It's unbearable. And no one forgive me for being old. 254 00:30:32,720 --> 00:30:37,191 Just be patient. In five or six years I will be old too. 255 00:30:38,760 --> 00:30:42,594 Papa, you have Doctor Llyod to come specially. 256 00:30:42,760 --> 00:30:46,196 He just had a terrible accident experienced. 257 00:30:46,360 --> 00:30:53,118 He doesn't understand anything about medicine. He is a fool, an idealist. 258 00:30:53,280 --> 00:30:55,191 Then not. - I don't want to see him. 259 00:30:55,360 --> 00:30:57,555 I have nothing to do with it. 260 00:30:57,720 --> 00:31:01,679 I'm choking. Sian, Sian. 261 00:31:01,840 --> 00:31:04,274 This house. 262 00:31:04,440 --> 00:31:09,150 What is ? - Give me my pills. On the table. 263 00:31:09,320 --> 00:31:13,711 Please. - No, those are the wrong ones. 264 00:31:13,880 --> 00:31:18,192 Why doesn't anyone do what I ask? - I don't have time for this. 265 00:31:18,360 --> 00:31:20,316 I have to get up early tomorrow. 266 00:31:20,480 --> 00:31:23,040 Where's Helen? - I'm here. 267 00:31:23,200 --> 00:31:27,079 Just go to bed. - Don't leave me alone with him. 268 00:31:27,240 --> 00:31:29,356 He's killing me with his nonsense. 269 00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:34,913 You go to bed too. In the name of our old friendship. 270 00:31:35,080 --> 00:31:38,755 Very old friendship. - We'll talk some other time. 271 00:31:38,920 --> 00:31:42,515 Don't leave me alone with him. I won't survive that. 272 00:31:42,680 --> 00:31:46,389 Gwenny, are you still up? - He wants tea later. 273 00:31:46,560 --> 00:31:48,835 So I can't go to bed. 274 00:31:49,000 --> 00:31:54,279 Everyone is devastated except me. I'm fresh as a fiddle. 275 00:31:54,440 --> 00:31:58,194 How are you feeling? - Terrible, Gwenny. 276 00:31:58,360 --> 00:32:00,828 It hurts, right? 277 00:32:03,360 --> 00:32:07,638 Be quiet. I have too such a nagging pain in my leg. 278 00:32:07,800 --> 00:32:10,712 But you've been in pain for a long time, right? 279 00:32:10,880 --> 00:32:12,711 God help us. 280 00:32:12,880 --> 00:32:17,829 Old people are like children. They want to be pampered. 281 00:32:19,960 --> 00:32:22,315 To bed. 282 00:32:25,080 --> 00:32:29,870 I'll make you a nice pot of tea. Would you also like a hot water bottle? 283 00:32:30,040 --> 00:32:33,476 I say my prayer and then I'll come and tuck you in. 284 00:32:33,640 --> 00:32:36,996 My leg hurts so much. - Me, too. 285 00:32:37,160 --> 00:32:40,072 I know that. - Good night. 286 00:32:44,560 --> 00:32:49,634 He exhausted me so much. I can barely stand on my legs. 287 00:32:58,160 --> 00:33:00,754 We are a pitiable bunch. 288 00:33:07,840 --> 00:33:12,630 Your mother despises everything and everyone, except her pamphlets. 289 00:33:12,800 --> 00:33:16,634 And her beloved professor. - He doesn't trust me. 290 00:33:16,800 --> 00:33:19,360 And he's afraid of you. 291 00:33:19,520 --> 00:33:21,829 You love him and despise your mother. 292 00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:25,117 And Sian is angry with him and me. 293 00:33:25,280 --> 00:33:30,070 And I've been twenty times already today almost burst into tears. 294 00:33:30,240 --> 00:33:34,677 A pitiable bunch. You are a smart, learned man. 295 00:33:34,840 --> 00:33:39,436 You know what's wrong in this world. Not the big things, but the small ones. 296 00:33:39,600 --> 00:33:43,388 Hatred, anger and narrow-mindedness. 297 00:33:43,560 --> 00:33:48,111 Instead of complaining you would people have to bring together. 298 00:33:57,040 --> 00:33:59,190 Why don't you go away, Ieuan? 299 00:34:10,600 --> 00:34:14,559 I offer you my life and my love. 300 00:34:14,720 --> 00:34:18,838 What else should I do with it? Where should I put them? Tell me. 301 00:34:19,000 --> 00:34:23,676 When you talk about love, I shut down completely. I'm sorry. 302 00:34:24,880 --> 00:34:26,757 I have nothing to say. 303 00:34:30,080 --> 00:34:34,312 I'm afraid of another life. Jij vergooit je leven ook. 304 00:34:34,480 --> 00:34:37,392 What are you waiting for? What's holding you back? 305 00:34:37,560 --> 00:34:39,278 You're drunk. - Can't you see? 306 00:34:39,440 --> 00:34:43,149 Why are you drinking again? - Dan verbeeld ik me dat ik leef. 307 00:34:43,320 --> 00:34:46,835 Damn it, Helen. - Go to bed. You bore me. 308 00:34:54,720 --> 00:34:57,917 Ten years ago I met her at my sister's. 309 00:34:58,080 --> 00:35:01,390 She was twenty and I was... I know how old. 310 00:35:01,560 --> 00:35:06,395 Waarom heb ik haar toen niet asked ? Then it could have happened. 311 00:35:06,560 --> 00:35:12,032 Dan was ze nu wakker geworden through the storm and thunder... 312 00:35:12,200 --> 00:35:16,910 en dan had ik haar vastgehouden and whispered: Do not be afraid. 313 00:35:17,080 --> 00:35:20,550 I'm here. Ieuan is here. 314 00:35:24,280 --> 00:35:26,874 What a beautiful, happy dream. 315 00:35:27,040 --> 00:35:30,112 Why am I so confused? Why am I old? 316 00:35:30,280 --> 00:35:32,555 Why doesn't she understand me? 317 00:35:37,240 --> 00:35:40,277 All alone? No ladies? 318 00:35:41,960 --> 00:35:45,635 I've been cheated. Yes, cheated. 319 00:35:45,800 --> 00:35:50,396 I have served Blathwaite, that pitiful cripple. 320 00:35:52,040 --> 00:35:56,113 I worked my butt off for him. I was his slave. 321 00:35:56,280 --> 00:35:59,989 Sian and I have this estate kept running. 322 00:36:00,160 --> 00:36:04,790 Despite the depression, despite that we had to lower rents. 323 00:36:04,960 --> 00:36:10,080 We pinched the farmers and we bickered about hay. 324 00:36:11,320 --> 00:36:16,110 We scraped everything together to send him money. 325 00:36:19,720 --> 00:36:22,871 I was so proud of him and its science. 326 00:36:24,480 --> 00:36:27,040 He was my whole soul and salvation. 327 00:36:30,640 --> 00:36:35,839 Everything he said was the inspiration of a genius. 328 00:36:37,360 --> 00:36:41,831 And now I'm deceived. It's as clear as day. 329 00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:46,596 The people of Wales become always fooled by the English. 330 00:36:57,880 --> 00:37:02,237 I heard Mrs. Blathwaite. - Yeah, he was just here. 331 00:37:02,400 --> 00:37:04,197 Wonderful woman. 332 00:37:09,480 --> 00:37:12,358 What's wrong with you, Ieuan? - Nothing. 333 00:37:12,520 --> 00:37:16,274 Are you in love with her? - She's my girlfriend. 334 00:37:16,440 --> 00:37:21,514 Already? Friendship is always the last in the list. 335 00:37:21,680 --> 00:37:24,990 Companion, mistress, friend. 336 00:37:25,160 --> 00:37:29,790 How vulgar you are. - That's okay, because I'm drunk. 337 00:37:29,960 --> 00:37:34,590 That's only me once a month. And then I can take on the world. 338 00:37:34,760 --> 00:37:39,276 Then I can perform the most difficult operations execute. 339 00:37:39,440 --> 00:37:42,876 Like this afternoon. Play around, Pocky. 340 00:37:43,040 --> 00:37:47,750 I want that but everyone is sleeping. 341 00:37:47,920 --> 00:37:51,959 Silence. Please shut up. 342 00:37:52,120 --> 00:37:56,636 Quiet. I'm trying to sleep. - They're both drunk. 343 00:37:56,800 --> 00:38:00,554 We need to have a drink. Is there anything here? 344 00:38:00,720 --> 00:38:04,838 Wine, cognac, whisky. Ieuan, where are you? 345 00:38:06,360 --> 00:38:09,591 There you are. There's probably something here. 346 00:38:13,840 --> 00:38:15,193 Hebbes. 347 00:38:19,000 --> 00:38:21,560 I'm sorry. I don't have my shirt on. 348 00:38:26,320 --> 00:38:28,675 What a beautiful couple together. 349 00:38:28,840 --> 00:38:32,594 We are used to it from the doctor, but you are too old. 350 00:38:32,760 --> 00:38:35,194 What does age have to do with it? 351 00:38:35,360 --> 00:38:39,239 If you have no life, you have to live in your dreams. 352 00:38:39,400 --> 00:38:43,313 We cannot reap, because it rains every night. 353 00:38:43,480 --> 00:38:47,792 And you're just dreaming. It seems like you've given up. 354 00:38:47,960 --> 00:38:51,032 I have to do everything alone and I'm exhausted. 355 00:38:58,160 --> 00:39:00,799 Why are you crying? 356 00:39:00,960 --> 00:39:07,832 You looked just like your mother for a moment always watched. My dear sister Hannah. 357 00:39:08,000 --> 00:39:10,468 Where would she be now? 358 00:39:10,640 --> 00:39:15,031 If she only knew. If she only knew. 359 00:39:16,240 --> 00:39:18,834 What should she know? 360 00:39:19,000 --> 00:39:24,120 Nothing. It's just too much. It's too painful. 361 00:39:46,160 --> 00:39:49,709 Can I speak to you for a moment? Excuse me. 362 00:39:49,880 --> 00:39:56,479 You can drink as much as you want, but don't drag Uncle Ieuan into it. 363 00:39:56,640 --> 00:39:59,552 It's bad for him. - As you wish. 364 00:39:59,720 --> 00:40:05,033 But don't make me come for that again your father. He's not listening anyway. 365 00:40:05,200 --> 00:40:08,272 He didn't even want to talk to me. - He's spoiled. 366 00:40:08,440 --> 00:40:13,275 He used to have a lot of success among women, that's why. 367 00:40:13,440 --> 00:40:16,193 Would you like to eat something? - Please. 368 00:40:18,680 --> 00:40:23,196 I like to eat at night. Usually there is something. 369 00:40:24,320 --> 00:40:27,357 Yes, here's some more cheese. 370 00:40:29,480 --> 00:40:31,232 Just have some. 371 00:40:34,480 --> 00:40:38,632 I haven't eaten all day, drunk alone. 372 00:40:39,760 --> 00:40:41,273 Can I? 373 00:40:45,280 --> 00:40:48,078 Your father is unpleasant lordship. 374 00:40:49,680 --> 00:40:55,789 I wouldn't last a month here. The atmosphere is suffocating. 375 00:40:55,960 --> 00:41:01,159 Your father with his obsession for gout and books. 376 00:41:01,320 --> 00:41:03,629 Ieuan with his depression. 377 00:41:05,400 --> 00:41:11,794 Grandmother, stepmother. - What's wrong with her? 378 00:41:11,960 --> 00:41:15,839 She doesn't do anything else then eat and sleep... 379 00:41:16,000 --> 00:41:19,390 and turn our heads. 380 00:41:19,560 --> 00:41:23,348 She has no function. Everything is done for her. 381 00:41:26,000 --> 00:41:32,519 A passive life is not a good life. Maybe that's too harsh. 382 00:41:33,760 --> 00:41:39,949 I'm just so tired of everything. as your uncle. We're a bunch of old grumps. 383 00:41:40,120 --> 00:41:41,917 Are you tired of everything? 384 00:41:48,840 --> 00:41:52,150 I like country life terrible. 385 00:41:52,320 --> 00:41:55,790 I detest it from the bottom of my heart. 386 00:41:55,960 --> 00:42:02,433 I work harder than anyone here and it never bothers me. 387 00:42:04,080 --> 00:42:07,390 Sometimes I'm so down. 388 00:42:09,920 --> 00:42:13,435 I don't care about anything anymore. 389 00:42:13,600 --> 00:42:17,991 I haven't had one in so long loved someone. 390 00:42:18,160 --> 00:42:20,230 From no one? 391 00:42:20,400 --> 00:42:25,918 I have tender feelings for Gwenny, because of the past. 392 00:42:31,520 --> 00:42:35,274 Please don't drink anymore. 393 00:42:35,440 --> 00:42:38,477 Why not? - It doesn't suit you. 394 00:42:38,640 --> 00:42:43,953 You are such a wonderful man. Your voice is so gentle. 395 00:42:46,200 --> 00:42:49,317 You are so handsome. 396 00:42:49,480 --> 00:42:54,349 Don't be like others who drink and play cards. 397 00:42:59,520 --> 00:43:04,594 You always say so yourself that people don't create anything anymore... 398 00:43:04,760 --> 00:43:09,595 and that they only destroy what God has given him. 399 00:43:09,760 --> 00:43:12,320 So why are you destroying yourself? 400 00:43:14,480 --> 00:43:17,790 Please don't do that. 401 00:43:29,200 --> 00:43:31,430 I will never drink again. 402 00:43:32,560 --> 00:43:35,632 Do you promise that? - On my word of honour. 403 00:43:37,760 --> 00:43:44,677 Finished. I'm sober. And that I will stay until my days are numbered. 404 00:43:44,840 --> 00:43:49,550 My days are already numbered anyway. 405 00:43:49,720 --> 00:43:52,553 I am old, vulgar and insensitive. 406 00:43:52,720 --> 00:43:56,633 I don't love anyone and never will. 407 00:43:59,400 --> 00:44:01,277 I'm going to bed. 408 00:44:07,480 --> 00:44:13,032 Suppose I had a girlfriend or a younger sister. 409 00:44:13,200 --> 00:44:17,398 And you found out that they loved you What would you do then? 410 00:44:19,320 --> 00:44:21,675 I would ignore it. 411 00:44:21,840 --> 00:44:26,789 I would tell her I don't like it could keep her. Way too busy. 412 00:45:05,120 --> 00:45:07,270 The wind has died down. 413 00:45:18,640 --> 00:45:23,156 How long will you stay mad at me? 414 00:45:23,320 --> 00:45:28,553 We haven't done anything wrong to each other. Why are we so hostile? 415 00:45:28,720 --> 00:45:33,475 You think I'm with your father married for the wrong reasons. 416 00:45:33,640 --> 00:45:39,158 But I swear to you I married him out of love. 417 00:45:39,320 --> 00:45:43,393 He was famous and smart and I was taken aback. 418 00:45:43,560 --> 00:45:48,395 Maybe it wasn't real love, but then it seemed real enough. 419 00:45:50,680 --> 00:45:57,153 But you always look so suspicious at me, as if you don't like me. 420 00:45:57,320 --> 00:46:01,313 I'm sorry. - You have to dare to trust people. 421 00:46:03,360 --> 00:46:08,150 Shouldn't we make it up to you? - I'm sorry. I don't know... 422 00:46:23,760 --> 00:46:28,470 Tell me, are you happy? 423 00:46:31,600 --> 00:46:34,319 Would you have preferred a younger man? 424 00:46:37,040 --> 00:46:42,194 You're still such a child. Naturally. 425 00:46:44,320 --> 00:46:48,711 Ask me something again. Come on. - Do you like Dr. Llyod? 426 00:46:50,000 --> 00:46:54,232 Very much. Why ? 427 00:46:54,400 --> 00:46:57,710 I'm blushing, aren't I? 428 00:46:57,880 --> 00:47:02,908 I just told him that I think it's great and beautiful. 429 00:47:04,600 --> 00:47:08,798 Maybe I shouldn't have do. Do you think I'm foolish? 430 00:47:13,440 --> 00:47:16,432 I think he is very talented. 431 00:47:16,600 --> 00:47:20,434 He has courage and imagination. 432 00:47:21,800 --> 00:47:25,475 He plants a tree and introduces himself what it will be like in the future. 433 00:47:25,640 --> 00:47:30,316 He imagines that tree affects the happiness of humanity. 434 00:47:32,440 --> 00:47:38,515 Such people are so rare that you have to love them. 435 00:47:41,480 --> 00:47:45,678 He gets drunk every now and then, is coarse in the mouth. So what? 436 00:47:45,840 --> 00:47:48,832 Think of the life he leads. 437 00:47:49,000 --> 00:47:54,279 Long trips, grumpy people, poverty and disease. 438 00:47:55,720 --> 00:47:59,998 I wish you all the best, Sian. You deserve that. 439 00:48:00,160 --> 00:48:04,039 I'm just an insignificant one person. 440 00:48:04,200 --> 00:48:09,513 In my music, my husband's house, my married life and in my flirts. 441 00:48:09,680 --> 00:48:13,753 I always am been an insignificant person. 442 00:48:13,920 --> 00:48:18,869 When I think about it, I am really very unhappy. 443 00:48:19,040 --> 00:48:23,556 Why are you laughing? - I'm suddenly so happy. 444 00:48:29,760 --> 00:48:35,676 There is still some wine left. Let's drink on our new friendship. 445 00:48:41,640 --> 00:48:44,029 What's in this? Whiskey ? 446 00:48:45,520 --> 00:48:48,671 We drink from the same glass. 447 00:48:50,320 --> 00:48:55,633 I've longed for this for so long. - Don't cry, because then I'll start too. 448 00:49:02,840 --> 00:49:05,195 Now we are real friends. 449 00:49:08,920 --> 00:49:13,948 I'm in the mood for music. Shall I play something? 450 00:49:14,120 --> 00:49:17,669 Yeah, I'm not going to sleep yet. Please play some. 451 00:49:19,680 --> 00:49:25,277 Your father is still awake and playing music irritates him when he is sick. 452 00:49:25,440 --> 00:49:28,796 Go ask him if I can play something. 453 00:49:30,880 --> 00:49:36,637 I haven't really played in so long. I must be crying. 454 00:49:36,800 --> 00:49:40,395 I must be crying like a baby. 455 00:49:40,560 --> 00:49:43,870 Music ? At this hour? No way. 456 00:51:01,760 --> 00:51:05,275 Such a good child. And so friendly. 457 00:51:05,440 --> 00:51:10,468 Too bad she's so ugly. - She's always with that old slacker. 458 00:51:10,640 --> 00:51:12,517 Pocky the slacker. 459 00:51:21,640 --> 00:51:24,393 Look what he did. 460 00:51:32,160 --> 00:51:37,632 The professor wants something at one o'clock discuss with us. I'm curious. 461 00:51:37,800 --> 00:51:41,588 It's probably about business. - He's just busy with nonsense. 462 00:51:41,760 --> 00:51:45,196 Look what you've done. - I'm very sorry. 463 00:51:45,360 --> 00:51:49,558 Look now. She's so lazy that she can barely walk upright. 464 00:51:49,720 --> 00:51:53,679 What are you whining about again? Do you never get tired of yourself? 465 00:51:53,840 --> 00:51:57,310 You bore me. - You're bored. You don't do anything. 466 00:51:57,480 --> 00:51:59,436 You don't do anything either. - Stop it. 467 00:51:59,600 --> 00:52:03,912 I'm going to die of boredom again. - There's plenty to do, Helen. 468 00:52:04,080 --> 00:52:09,029 You can help on the farm, teaching, visiting the sick. 469 00:52:09,200 --> 00:52:13,034 Uncle Ieuan and I used to go to all sheep markets. 470 00:52:13,200 --> 00:52:18,593 Even to the one in Dolgellau. - A beautiful place. 471 00:52:18,760 --> 00:52:23,914 It doesn't interest me at all. I'm just bored. 472 00:52:24,080 --> 00:52:27,197 Because you don't know what to do. 473 00:52:27,360 --> 00:52:30,989 Uncle Ieuan doesn't do anything either, except following you. 474 00:52:31,160 --> 00:52:34,869 I quit my job to chat with you. 475 00:52:35,040 --> 00:52:38,953 And Doctor Llyod visits here every other day. 476 00:52:39,120 --> 00:52:44,194 He neglects his trees and his patients You are bewitching us. 477 00:52:44,360 --> 00:52:47,238 Don't look so unhappy. You are so beautiful. 478 00:52:47,400 --> 00:52:50,472 Cheer up. Be a mermaid. 479 00:52:50,640 --> 00:52:54,349 Let yourself go. Fall in love with a water spirit. 480 00:52:54,520 --> 00:52:57,876 Let us all be amazed. 481 00:52:58,040 --> 00:53:02,113 Leave me alone, stupid. - I'm sorry. Pax. 482 00:53:02,280 --> 00:53:06,239 You would be a saint make you even more impatient. 483 00:53:06,400 --> 00:53:11,076 In the name of peace, I'm going to pick beautiful roses for you. 484 00:53:22,520 --> 00:53:24,112 I'll be right back. 485 00:53:25,680 --> 00:53:30,117 It's almost autumn already. How do we get there? for God's sake through the winter? 486 00:53:40,200 --> 00:53:44,273 I've been in love with him for six years. 487 00:53:45,920 --> 00:53:50,471 But he doesn't look at me. He doesn't even notice me. 488 00:53:51,520 --> 00:53:54,273 It's absolute agony. 489 00:53:58,000 --> 00:54:01,834 Dear God, give me strength. 490 00:54:03,480 --> 00:54:06,119 I prayed all night. 491 00:54:06,280 --> 00:54:11,991 Sometimes I go to him and I start a conversation. 492 00:54:12,160 --> 00:54:16,597 I look him straight in the eye. I have no pride anymore. 493 00:54:16,760 --> 00:54:18,591 I can't control myself. 494 00:54:18,760 --> 00:54:23,231 All the servants know it and all tenants. 495 00:54:23,400 --> 00:54:25,550 Except the doctor himself. 496 00:54:28,160 --> 00:54:32,119 As if I'm not there. - He's a strange man. 497 00:54:36,160 --> 00:54:41,712 Should I talk to him? I will him just giving a hint. 498 00:54:41,880 --> 00:54:45,236 You can't go any longer live in uncertainty. 499 00:54:45,400 --> 00:54:48,392 Either he loves you or he doesn't. 500 00:54:52,120 --> 00:54:54,759 I'll be very tactful. 501 00:54:54,920 --> 00:54:57,832 We want an answer: yes or no. 502 00:54:58,000 --> 00:55:01,515 And if it's no, he shouldn't come here anymore. 503 00:55:04,560 --> 00:55:07,074 I'm so ordinary. 504 00:55:12,080 --> 00:55:13,911 You have beautiful hair. 505 00:55:17,560 --> 00:55:21,838 Let's do it right away. In Ieuan's study, you said? 506 00:55:24,080 --> 00:55:27,470 You're telling me the truth, aren't you? - Naturally. 507 00:55:27,640 --> 00:55:30,837 The whole truth? - The whole truth. 508 00:55:32,480 --> 00:55:37,110 Isn't it true that if you don't know, you can at least still hope? 509 00:55:41,440 --> 00:55:43,032 Never mind. 510 00:55:56,680 --> 00:56:01,151 You were supposed to show me your cards. - That's true. 511 00:56:01,320 --> 00:56:04,756 Only if you have time. 512 00:56:11,200 --> 00:56:14,192 Where were you born? - In Philadelphia. 513 00:56:16,280 --> 00:56:21,638 Then this probably doesn't interest you. - I have read a lot about nature. 514 00:56:35,200 --> 00:56:36,474 Sit down. 515 00:56:59,960 --> 00:57:01,598 Hold on. 516 00:57:15,400 --> 00:57:21,316 Here lived wolves, martens, hawks and eagles. 517 00:57:25,480 --> 00:57:26,879 Next. 518 00:57:28,600 --> 00:57:32,832 This is 250 years ago. Here is only a third forest. 519 00:57:33,000 --> 00:57:38,154 There are no more wolves. But still martens, hawks and eagles. 520 00:57:38,320 --> 00:57:41,471 And there is considerably less greenery. 521 00:57:47,920 --> 00:57:49,990 And this is what it looks like now. 522 00:57:50,160 --> 00:57:54,756 Here and there a piece of forest, no contiguous forest... 523 00:57:54,920 --> 00:58:00,790 no martens, wolves or eagles more. It is in disrepair. 524 00:58:00,960 --> 00:58:06,796 It will be over in fifteen years. Then nothing is where it should be anymore. 525 00:58:25,360 --> 00:58:29,478 You are clear not interested, are you? 526 00:58:29,640 --> 00:58:34,111 I honestly thought to something else. 527 00:58:34,280 --> 00:58:37,238 That was clear. - I'm sorry. 528 00:58:42,680 --> 00:58:47,595 I have a few questions and that makes me uncomfortable. 529 00:58:51,560 --> 00:58:54,074 I don't know how to start. 530 00:59:00,840 --> 00:59:05,994 It's about my stepdaughter Sian. Do you like her? 531 00:59:06,160 --> 00:59:08,355 Do you like her as a woman? 532 00:59:10,200 --> 00:59:12,668 Didn't you notice anything? 533 00:59:14,200 --> 00:59:17,875 You're not in love with her. I see that. 534 00:59:18,040 --> 00:59:22,079 But she is so unhappy. Try to understand it. 535 00:59:22,240 --> 00:59:24,674 You shouldn't come here anymore. 536 00:59:28,040 --> 00:59:32,079 I'm too old for this nonsense. I'm too busy. 537 00:59:32,240 --> 00:59:36,472 Forget this conversation and leave this house. 538 00:59:36,640 --> 00:59:41,634 If I make her unhappy... - You're smart. You get the idea. 539 00:59:43,720 --> 00:59:46,757 What does this get you? - Me ? 540 00:59:46,920 --> 00:59:50,959 Little devil. - What do you mean ? 541 00:59:59,880 --> 01:00:03,475 I understand that she is unhappy, but what do you want? 542 01:00:03,640 --> 01:00:08,668 I don't understand you. - You know why I come here. 543 01:00:08,840 --> 01:00:11,957 I don't understand what you mean. - You know that very well. 544 01:00:12,120 --> 01:00:15,954 I neglect my work because of you. 545 01:00:16,120 --> 01:00:18,759 I knew that... - You enjoy it. 546 01:00:18,920 --> 01:00:21,388 I swear... - You don't have to. 547 01:00:21,560 --> 01:00:27,669 Don't say anything. I am yours. You knew that very well. 548 01:00:27,840 --> 01:00:30,115 Stop it. - You're so beautiful. 549 01:00:30,280 --> 01:00:33,875 Where can we meet? - You're crazy. 550 01:00:34,040 --> 01:00:36,156 Come on. - You're crazy. 551 01:00:36,320 --> 01:00:38,993 Leave me alone. 552 01:00:57,840 --> 01:00:59,876 How awful. 553 01:01:03,440 --> 01:01:07,513 It doesn't matter. It's no big deal. 554 01:01:07,680 --> 01:01:10,114 Everything will still be fine. 555 01:01:10,280 --> 01:01:13,750 It was cloudy this morning. As if it was going to rain. 556 01:01:13,920 --> 01:01:18,630 The sun is shining now. It's a beautiful August. 557 01:01:21,680 --> 01:01:25,229 The barley looks good. 558 01:01:30,520 --> 01:01:36,516 can you make sure my husband and I can leave today? 559 01:01:36,680 --> 01:01:42,118 I want to get out of here. Get out of this house. I'm not staying here any longer. 560 01:01:49,640 --> 01:01:55,510 It's like I fell off the earth on an undiscovered planet. 561 01:01:55,680 --> 01:01:59,389 I can't stand this house, it's like a maze. 562 01:01:59,560 --> 01:02:04,156 People walk in all directions, you never find the one you're looking for. 563 01:02:10,840 --> 01:02:13,832 My wife is a remarkable person. 564 01:02:28,400 --> 01:02:32,837 Where is everyone? An hour, I said. 565 01:02:33,000 --> 01:02:35,992 Sian, ask your grandma and Helen come here. 566 01:02:36,160 --> 01:02:38,720 I'm already there. 567 01:02:39,760 --> 01:02:42,354 Shall we sit down? 568 01:02:42,520 --> 01:02:45,398 Where is Mair? - It's coming. 569 01:02:46,400 --> 01:02:48,960 What did he say? - Later. 570 01:02:49,120 --> 01:02:51,076 Would everyone please sit down? 571 01:02:51,240 --> 01:02:54,118 You're shaking. You're upset. 572 01:02:54,960 --> 01:02:59,112 He certainly doesn't come here anymore, does he? Am I right? 573 01:02:59,280 --> 01:03:00,952 She doesn't listen. 574 01:03:04,360 --> 01:03:09,275 Ladies and gentlemen, I ask you around me, as they say... 575 01:03:09,440 --> 01:03:12,432 to listen to your ear to lay. 576 01:03:15,080 --> 01:03:20,632 You don't need me. Can I go? - I just need you. 577 01:03:20,800 --> 01:03:22,756 For what? - Don't snap. 578 01:03:22,920 --> 01:03:25,514 Then say what you have to say. 579 01:03:25,680 --> 01:03:28,797 Where's mother? - I'm here. 580 01:03:30,120 --> 01:03:33,669 Shall we start now? 581 01:03:33,840 --> 01:03:40,188 I want to ask you for advice and I'm counting on you to give me that. 582 01:03:40,360 --> 01:03:45,354 I'm an intellectual, a literary man man, bad at practical matters. 583 01:03:45,520 --> 01:03:50,913 As they say: Manet omnes una nox. 584 01:03:51,080 --> 01:03:54,755 We are all in God's hands and I am old and sick. 585 01:03:54,920 --> 01:03:58,151 It's time to put things in order. 586 01:03:58,320 --> 01:04:00,595 Not for myself, my time is up. 587 01:04:00,760 --> 01:04:04,719 I have a young wife and an unmarried daughter. 588 01:04:04,880 --> 01:04:10,034 I don't want to stay in the country. Helen and I don't belong here. 589 01:04:10,200 --> 01:04:16,389 But I can't live in London. This estate yields too little. 590 01:04:16,560 --> 01:04:21,190 We can sell our forests, but that has a one-time effect. 591 01:04:21,360 --> 01:04:23,669 We cannot repeat that. 592 01:04:23,840 --> 01:04:30,473 We need a permanent way come up with to earn income. 593 01:04:32,000 --> 01:04:37,711 I've thought about it for a long time and came up with this solution. 594 01:04:37,880 --> 01:04:40,348 In broad terms: 595 01:04:40,520 --> 01:04:43,637 This estate brings two percent per year. 596 01:04:43,800 --> 01:04:48,191 I suggest the estate to sell. 597 01:04:48,360 --> 01:04:55,232 If we invest the money in bonds, we get four percent. 598 01:04:55,400 --> 01:05:01,077 Maybe there is some left to buy a cottage in Kent or Sussex. 599 01:05:01,240 --> 01:05:05,756 I must have misheard this. can you repeat that? 600 01:05:05,920 --> 01:05:10,277 We can with bonds expect a four percent profit. 601 01:05:10,440 --> 01:05:15,150 No, what you said before. - That I want to sell the estate. 602 01:05:15,320 --> 01:05:18,676 Yes, you said that. A great idea. 603 01:05:18,840 --> 01:05:22,389 What about me then? my mother and Sian? 604 01:05:22,560 --> 01:05:26,269 There is still plenty of time to decide on that. 605 01:05:26,440 --> 01:05:30,035 How stupid of me. I thought which was Sian's estate. 606 01:05:30,200 --> 01:05:36,799 My father bought it for my sister. Then it now belongs to her daughter. 607 01:05:36,960 --> 01:05:40,873 The estate indeed belongs to Sian. 608 01:05:41,040 --> 01:05:44,271 I can't sell either without her permission. 609 01:05:44,440 --> 01:05:47,750 My proposal is therefore in her interest. 610 01:05:47,920 --> 01:05:50,309 I don't believe that at all. 611 01:05:50,480 --> 01:05:53,631 Don't contradict him. He understands it. 612 01:05:53,800 --> 01:05:57,509 No. Can I have a glass of water? Okay, let's move on. 613 01:05:57,680 --> 01:06:02,435 Why are you so angry? I say not that this solution is ideal. 614 01:06:02,600 --> 01:06:05,239 If you are against it, it's about. 615 01:06:05,400 --> 01:06:09,552 I respect knowledge. It's in my blood. 616 01:06:09,720 --> 01:06:13,952 My sister-in-law's brother, Haydn Davies, you probably know him... 617 01:06:14,120 --> 01:06:17,317 Pocky, not now. This is important. 618 01:06:17,480 --> 01:06:20,677 This estate belonged to his uncle. - That doesn't matter. 619 01:06:20,840 --> 01:06:23,957 My father has one Paid £19,500 for it. 620 01:06:24,120 --> 01:06:26,350 Or 17,000, the rest was mortgage. 621 01:06:26,520 --> 01:06:32,470 He could buy it because I got my share had given up in the inheritance. 622 01:06:32,640 --> 01:06:38,510 I worked my butt off. I worked my ass off for ten years... 623 01:06:38,680 --> 01:06:40,716 to pay off the mortgage. 624 01:06:40,880 --> 01:06:47,149 Thanks to me we live here for free and now you just want to throw me out on the street. 625 01:06:47,320 --> 01:06:51,108 Where do you want to go? - Let me explain that to you. 626 01:06:51,280 --> 01:06:57,150 I have managed this estate for many years and sent you money. 627 01:06:57,320 --> 01:07:03,316 And you didn't thank me once. £50 a year was what I got. 628 01:07:03,480 --> 01:07:07,792 I never got a raise. - I wasn't aware of that. 629 01:07:07,960 --> 01:07:12,317 I am not a practical man. You could have given yourself a raise. 630 01:07:12,480 --> 01:07:18,032 I could have robbed you, you mean. Because of my honesty I am now poor. 631 01:07:18,200 --> 01:07:21,636 Ieuan, you're making everyone upset. - Leave me alone. 632 01:07:21,800 --> 01:07:25,873 My mother and I have been together for 25 years lived here like a bunch of moles. 633 01:07:26,040 --> 01:07:30,955 Uncle Ieuan, please. - We were just talking about you. 634 01:07:31,120 --> 01:07:37,434 We admired your work and spoke only about you. We were in awe. 635 01:07:37,600 --> 01:07:42,720 We ruined our eyes reading books and articles... 636 01:07:42,880 --> 01:07:47,158 which I now only despise. - What do you want? 637 01:07:47,320 --> 01:07:51,438 I have them all by heart learned, but now I see through you. 638 01:07:51,600 --> 01:07:57,835 You write about art, but you understand none of it. It's all rubbish. 639 01:08:00,120 --> 01:08:05,592 You ruined my life. - Can someone calm him down? 640 01:08:05,760 --> 01:08:08,513 Stop this. - I'm not done yet. 641 01:08:08,680 --> 01:08:10,910 You ruined my life. 642 01:08:11,080 --> 01:08:15,437 I'm having the best years of my life wasted for your sake. 643 01:08:15,600 --> 01:08:17,830 Goddammit. 644 01:08:19,280 --> 01:08:24,479 What do you actually want to say? - You're my worst enemy. 645 01:08:24,640 --> 01:08:27,234 How dare you? 646 01:08:27,400 --> 01:08:31,188 You can have this estate from me. I don't have to. 647 01:08:31,360 --> 01:08:33,999 I can't take it anymore. 648 01:08:34,160 --> 01:08:37,835 I might as well be dead. I was a talented boy. 649 01:08:38,000 --> 01:08:43,677 I could have been a Schopenhauer, a Dostoyevsky, a Charles Dickens. 650 01:08:43,840 --> 01:08:46,308 What am I saying now? I'm going crazy. 651 01:08:48,400 --> 01:08:50,755 He's insane. 652 01:08:50,920 --> 01:08:53,480 I know what I have to do. 653 01:08:58,720 --> 01:09:00,517 What hell. 654 01:09:00,680 --> 01:09:02,910 He's clearly crazy. 655 01:09:04,760 --> 01:09:08,548 Can someone send him away? Otherwise I'll leave. 656 01:09:08,720 --> 01:09:12,076 We're leaving tonight. - I'm not staying here with him. 657 01:09:12,240 --> 01:09:15,994 We're leaving tonight. Start making preparations. 658 01:09:16,160 --> 01:09:21,280 We are so unhappy. Please understand. - Please go talk to him. 659 01:09:21,440 --> 01:09:26,230 I'll try. I accuse him of nothing. I'm not angry. 660 01:09:29,200 --> 01:09:30,633 Help. - Where is he? 661 01:09:30,800 --> 01:09:36,352 Uncle Ieuan and I were sitting reading your books evening after evening. 662 01:09:36,520 --> 01:09:41,230 We never had a holiday we never had any money. 663 01:09:41,400 --> 01:09:43,675 I'll see what I can do. 664 01:09:45,360 --> 01:09:46,793 On the side. 665 01:09:54,600 --> 01:09:56,795 On the Side. Right now. 666 01:09:57,360 --> 01:10:00,033 You ruined my life. 667 01:10:04,400 --> 01:10:06,709 What's going on? 668 01:10:06,880 --> 01:10:09,189 He's gone crazy. 669 01:10:11,920 --> 01:10:15,310 I am an old man. - He's old. Don't do it. 670 01:10:18,200 --> 01:10:21,829 Let me go. Blathwaite. Let me go. 671 01:10:49,120 --> 01:10:54,274 I'm coming. Where are you ? - down here. In the basement. 672 01:10:54,440 --> 01:10:58,672 I hid the gun. - Don't talk so loudly. 673 01:11:01,760 --> 01:11:04,399 I can't breathe. 674 01:11:04,560 --> 01:11:09,759 This house is a nightmare. A living hell in Wales. 675 01:11:34,080 --> 01:11:38,073 Leave me alone. Go away. - Enjoy everything. 676 01:11:38,240 --> 01:11:40,629 But you have something from me. - Not true. 677 01:11:40,800 --> 01:11:45,715 Stop it. I want to get out of here. - I don't have anything from you. 678 01:11:45,880 --> 01:11:49,350 Okay, then I'll wait a little longer. 679 01:11:50,720 --> 01:11:54,076 I have complete myself ridiculed. 680 01:11:54,240 --> 01:11:57,471 I fired twice and missed both times. 681 01:11:57,640 --> 01:12:02,714 Why don't you shoot yourself? - It's strange. 682 01:12:02,880 --> 01:12:08,000 I almost killed someone and I didn't even get arrested. 683 01:12:09,400 --> 01:12:13,154 So they have to think that I'm crazy. 684 01:12:13,320 --> 01:12:15,550 Me, crazy. 685 01:12:15,720 --> 01:12:19,395 While stupidity and callousness to hide... 686 01:12:19,560 --> 01:12:25,510 under the mantle of our scholar oracle: Herr Professor. 687 01:12:25,680 --> 01:12:28,513 They're not crazy, no. 688 01:12:28,680 --> 01:12:33,629 And women who love their old husbands cheating are not crazy either. 689 01:12:34,960 --> 01:12:40,557 I saw you kiss her. - Yes, I kissed her. So what? 690 01:12:42,800 --> 01:12:46,713 They're going to Cheltenham. - That's a good thing. 691 01:12:46,880 --> 01:12:52,750 They don't take much with them. But they didn't belong here either. 692 01:12:52,920 --> 01:12:56,799 I can't say that I mind. All that noise. 693 01:12:56,960 --> 01:13:00,555 And about that shooting... 694 01:13:02,280 --> 01:13:05,636 I'll be happy when everything gets back to normal like before. 695 01:13:05,800 --> 01:13:09,588 Breakfast at eight o'clock, lunch at one o'clock, and dinner in the evening. 696 01:13:09,760 --> 01:13:13,878 Everything in the right place and the correct time. 697 01:13:14,040 --> 01:13:17,396 I have for so long didn't have a nice bowl of soup. 698 01:13:17,560 --> 01:13:20,358 Not in a while. 699 01:13:25,480 --> 01:13:28,995 Send me the rest. - I will. 700 01:13:30,360 --> 01:13:34,353 I don't know what's wrong with him. - He's insane. 701 01:13:34,520 --> 01:13:36,238 He's from Wales. 702 01:13:37,360 --> 01:13:41,273 I am now 56. I could live to be 70. 703 01:13:41,440 --> 01:13:44,238 That's another 14 years. An eternity. 704 01:13:46,640 --> 01:13:51,191 How am I supposed to pass that time? 705 01:13:55,320 --> 01:13:57,550 If only life were different. 706 01:13:57,720 --> 01:14:03,272 If only I woke up one day and if only I could start over. 707 01:14:05,000 --> 01:14:07,639 All over again. 708 01:14:07,800 --> 01:14:11,839 Forgetting the past. Blown away like smoke. 709 01:14:15,640 --> 01:14:18,518 How can I start again? 710 01:14:18,680 --> 01:14:22,434 No one can. How were you going to do that? 711 01:14:24,400 --> 01:14:27,073 You have a bottle of morphine stolen from me. 712 01:14:27,240 --> 01:14:30,755 Give back. They'll think soon that I gave it to you. 713 01:14:30,920 --> 01:14:35,789 And then I can examine your corpse. Do you think that's fun? 714 01:14:37,200 --> 01:14:43,150 Your uncle has a bottle of morphine stolen and he won't give it back. 715 01:14:43,320 --> 01:14:47,279 can you ask him? I want to get out of here. 716 01:14:47,440 --> 01:14:52,070 Did you steal morphine? - Of course he has. 717 01:14:52,240 --> 01:14:53,593 Give back. 718 01:14:55,120 --> 01:15:01,958 Why do you scare us so much? Please, uncle. 719 01:15:02,120 --> 01:15:06,159 I'm as unhappy as you are, but I'm not giving up either. 720 01:15:06,320 --> 01:15:12,839 Because of God's will, Ieuan. - Pull yourself together. Cheer up. 721 01:15:20,400 --> 01:15:23,358 Please. 722 01:15:23,520 --> 01:15:27,229 Now we have to immediately at work. 723 01:15:50,480 --> 01:15:55,998 Are you going to talk to Alexander? He wants to tell you something. 724 01:15:56,160 --> 01:16:00,756 Come on, uncle. You have to make up. I'll go with you. 725 01:16:07,520 --> 01:16:09,397 Already? 726 01:16:12,520 --> 01:16:16,911 You would leave too. - I'm on my way. Were you afraid? 727 01:16:17,080 --> 01:16:20,390 Come to my house. - No, everything is already arranged. 728 01:16:20,560 --> 01:16:24,030 Otherwise I wouldn't have you anymore can look at. 729 01:16:24,200 --> 01:16:29,035 I want you to respect me. - Please, stay. 730 01:16:29,200 --> 01:16:32,112 You have nothing to lose. You have no goal. 731 01:16:32,280 --> 01:16:38,150 One day you will let yourself go. Why don't you do it here? 732 01:16:38,320 --> 01:16:41,312 It's poetic here. It's a beautiful August. 733 01:16:41,480 --> 01:16:45,359 Here are forests and trees and rural houses. 734 01:16:45,520 --> 01:16:48,637 You are a fascinating one and original man. 735 01:16:48,800 --> 01:16:51,314 I had a little crush on you. 736 01:16:51,480 --> 01:16:56,076 But let's be friends break up. 737 01:16:56,240 --> 01:17:00,119 Don't be mad at me. - You are a strange woman. 738 01:17:00,280 --> 01:17:04,114 When you came here everyone stopped working... 739 01:17:04,280 --> 01:17:08,273 every other month of August to dedicate to you. 740 01:17:08,440 --> 01:17:10,715 You have infected us with your laziness. 741 01:17:10,880 --> 01:17:16,512 I didn't do anything. People are sick and die, but you... 742 01:17:16,680 --> 01:17:21,674 If you had stayed the destruction would have been complete. 743 01:17:21,840 --> 01:17:26,231 I would have gone into destruction and you... 744 01:17:27,840 --> 01:17:31,276 Finita la comedia. 745 01:17:38,400 --> 01:17:41,392 I'll take this as a memento of you. 746 01:17:43,160 --> 01:17:45,390 I wish you everything happiness. 747 01:17:47,360 --> 01:17:50,989 For once I'll let myself go. 748 01:17:58,880 --> 01:18:00,359 I have to go. 749 01:18:05,600 --> 01:18:07,477 Finita. 750 01:18:09,360 --> 01:18:12,989 Let's forget the past. 751 01:18:13,160 --> 01:18:16,994 After what I've done over the past few hours have experienced... 752 01:18:17,160 --> 01:18:20,516 I'm going to write something for posterity. 753 01:18:20,680 --> 01:18:23,399 "As One Should Live." 754 01:18:23,560 --> 01:18:28,998 I accept your apology and hope you accept mine. 755 01:18:29,160 --> 01:18:33,711 We will transfer money again. Everything will go back to the way it was. 756 01:18:37,440 --> 01:18:43,117 Send me a photo of you. You know how dear you are to me. 757 01:18:43,280 --> 01:18:48,195 Hello, professor. Don't forget us. - I admire your way of thinking. 758 01:18:48,360 --> 01:18:52,751 And I will share your generosity miss. 759 01:18:52,920 --> 01:18:57,550 But give an old man another word of farewell. 760 01:18:57,720 --> 01:19:01,998 You guys have to get back to work. Get started. 761 01:19:03,720 --> 01:19:08,669 I will write an essay: "As One Should Live." 762 01:19:08,840 --> 01:19:11,752 I'm sending you all a copy. 763 01:19:45,600 --> 01:19:47,238 Dear Ieuan... 764 01:19:48,720 --> 01:19:50,950 please forgive me. 765 01:19:52,520 --> 01:19:55,398 We will never see each other again. 766 01:19:57,000 --> 01:19:58,672 Goodbye. 767 01:20:01,480 --> 01:20:03,471 Dear, dear Ieuan. 768 01:20:17,600 --> 01:20:24,278 Aren't you going to wave him goodbye? - No, just let them go. 769 01:21:08,160 --> 01:21:12,551 It's going to be a beautiful evening, don't you think? 770 01:21:16,200 --> 01:21:18,236 Let's get started then. 771 01:21:27,920 --> 01:21:32,152 Well, they're gone. 772 01:21:34,280 --> 01:21:37,556 Indeed, uncle. Let's get to work. 773 01:21:39,280 --> 01:21:43,671 We don't have that long sitting together at this table. 774 01:21:43,840 --> 01:21:45,751 Too bad they're gone. 775 01:21:47,280 --> 01:21:49,077 They're gone. 776 01:21:50,560 --> 01:21:56,795 We have to start paying bills. We're behind. 777 01:21:56,960 --> 01:22:02,671 Mr. Jones asked me this morning for his money. Edwin Jones. 778 01:22:04,920 --> 01:22:08,833 Take your pen, uncle. 779 01:22:09,000 --> 01:22:13,630 Let's both do one. 780 01:22:14,840 --> 01:22:17,593 On behalf of Edwin Jones... 781 01:22:19,200 --> 01:22:21,634 It was a long day. 782 01:22:21,800 --> 01:22:24,951 How quiet it is. They're gone. 783 01:22:28,120 --> 01:22:29,712 I don't want to leave. 784 01:22:34,080 --> 01:22:38,073 Doctor Llyod, your car is ready. 785 01:22:38,240 --> 01:22:41,232 It remains for me to say goodbye to take from you. 786 01:22:41,400 --> 01:22:44,392 A sum of fifteen pounds and two shillings... 787 01:22:47,920 --> 01:22:52,630 When will we see you again? - Not anymore this fall. 788 01:22:52,800 --> 01:22:59,194 Thanks for all meals and for your hospitality. Hello, Gwenny. 789 01:22:59,360 --> 01:23:02,158 Would you like a cup? tea ? - No, thank you. 790 01:23:02,320 --> 01:23:05,915 A glass of whisky? - Maybe. 791 01:23:09,000 --> 01:23:13,391 How hot it must be in Africa. 792 01:23:13,560 --> 01:23:17,838 It must be scorching hot there. Terrible. 793 01:23:22,600 --> 01:23:25,990 I'll figure it out myself. - I'll walk with you. 794 01:23:44,680 --> 01:23:47,638 Just call if you need me. - I will. 795 01:24:12,800 --> 01:24:14,631 Goodbye, doctor. 796 01:24:56,880 --> 01:25:00,953 I have such a pain in my heart. 797 01:25:01,120 --> 01:25:04,954 If you only knew how much pain I'm in. 798 01:25:05,120 --> 01:25:08,749 There's nothing to be done, uncle. We have to move on. 799 01:25:11,480 --> 01:25:16,998 And we will. We will continue. 800 01:25:17,160 --> 01:25:20,596 You and I, dear Uncle Ieuan. 801 01:25:22,680 --> 01:25:29,597 We will live a life full of cheerfulness and beauty. 802 01:25:29,760 --> 01:25:36,711 We will almost look back laughing at this unfortunate time. 803 01:25:36,880 --> 01:25:42,750 We will find peace. I believe so, uncle. 804 01:25:42,920 --> 01:25:44,876 I really believe that. 805 01:25:51,440 --> 01:25:56,560 Poor Uncle Ieuan. You've never known happiness, have you? 806 01:25:58,320 --> 01:26:02,916 But wait, uncle. Just wait. 807 01:26:03,080 --> 01:26:08,518 We will find peace. We will find peace. 808 01:27:08,518 --> 01:27:10,518 Dutch subtitles edited by: Spearman.